While wading through an old notebook today, I found a list of New Year's resolutions I made up 12 months ago. I have reason to believe they were written not long after a long phone call with someone who "needed me so much," but that's another story.
So let's see where my head was at during the waning days of 2005....
"By the end of 2006:
1. (name withheld) and I will be (deleted);
2. I will make sure (name withheld) has all the love, fun, security and respect missing in her life now;
3. I will not be working for (deleted) and (deleted), but only for honest clients who pay well and on time;
4. I will quit (deleted);
5. I will take a real vacation, and will take (deleted) with me;
6. I will quit (deleted) not the same as #4;
7. I will get a (deleted) or (deleted), and get back into my music seriously;
8. I will be debt-free;
9. I will start working on my book;
10. I will have a home, not just a roof over my head."
So, how did it turn out?
In baseball parlance, I'm batting .000, am in fact farther away from achieving any of them than I was when I wrote the list. Possibly, one lesson to be learned is that one should never make resolutions that require anyone else's cooperation. Another lesson might be to make no resolutions that have preconditions -- such as the interrelationship between #3 and #s 7, 8, 9 and 10. Forget about the connection between #s 1 and 2 and all the rest....
With that in mind, let me present my one -- and only -- resolution for 2007: I will not make any more frigging resolutions, not this year, not ever again.
Few things are more painful than missing every goal you set for yourself.
And I've experienced more than one of the "few things" this past year, too....
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