...is what I've been doing all day. As a favor to all of you, you understand.
Nothing terribly bad has happened, and I suppose I should be grateful for that.
But I am in a strange, dislocated mood. And the things that could pull me back into a useful and worthwhile reality right now aren't happening either.
I am so tired of putting on a happy, positive and supportive face for the rest of the world when my own world is pretty damn grim. I know it could be a lot worse; what is it now is bad enough.
I don't ask for much, believe me.
But I guess I'm asking for too much.
I may sound like the proverbial broken record (do you remember records?) but the more I have to keep on without some simple needs being met, the more they become the sole focus of my thoughts.
That's the way it goes.
And that's the way it is.
3 hours ago