...as in: from my island kingdom to the ugly reality of work.
I have to admit the stories I must complete over the next week or so -- a 2000-2500 word piece promised for Monday, another (which must be written in two versions for two magazines) of similar length due as soon as I can get all the preliminary work done -- are, in themselves, not bringing me down at all. I had fun gathering data for them, and in ordinary conditions they'd be simple to write.
These are not "ordinary conditions." Or, to be more precise, they are ordinary, but seem to weigh on me a little more every day.
Simply put, work has become the sole focus of my life. When I'm not actively involved with it, one or more facets of it are affecting what I do. I worry when I'm not working (or don't have any stories nearing deadline), worry because the checks are coming in too slowly. I can't even play effectively, knowing whatever it costs to do something I enjoy will come out of my dwindling resources.
The end result is that I work sporadically, less effectively when I actually do force myself to concentrate and with less satisfaction gained when I final ship the end result to an editor.
PARENTHETICAL THOUGHT: I know a lot of people who are bugged by their jobs. I've been there myself in the past. But I gave up quite a bit -- job security, benefits, steady paychecks -- to do something I enjoy, so I'd like to think it was worth it. Right now, it's not.
So what's the cure? Fabulous Furry Freak Brother "Freewheelin' Franklin" once observed that dope will get you through times of no money better than money will get you through times of no dope.
He was almost right. What I -- who seem to bear a more than passing resemblance to Freak Brother "Fat Freddy," right down to the orange-cat sidekick -- say is: love will get you through times of no money better than money will get you through times of no love.
Right now, I have neither love nor money. Or dope, for that matter.
On Scribbler Island, Freak Bros. comix will be readily available. I may even put up statues to them....
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