Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Wake-up call.

One forgets at one's own peril how fragile moments of happiness are.

As Emperor Hirohito said to the Japanese people in August, 1945, "the...situation has developed not necessarily to [our] advantage." That was how he introduced the unthinkable -- surrender -- to his people.

Right now, I can say my personal situation has developed not necessarily to my advantage.

I have to tell you that this journal will be taking something of a leave of absence for a while. I can't predict the length of the hiatus. Days, certainly; perhaps weeks or even months. Or more.

When and if I write here again, the words will pick up as if nothing has happened, as if there has been no blank space in between. There are things about which I cannot and will not write -- or speak about to anyone, for that matter -- if I am to be true to my beliefs, and what happened not long after I completed my last entry (and has not yet been fully resolved in my mind) is one of those things.

I write this without anger toward anyone. Be very clear on that. Do not think I have been brought to this point by the misdeeds of others, or by my own failings. There is no "wrong" involved. It is much simpler, and much more complicated, than that.

Simply put, dealing with the turmoil inside and basic needs of survival are going to be as much as I can handle for a while.

I would be grateful if those of you who are so inclined would send up a prayer or two for me in the days ahead. Mine, at least those I offer on my own behalf, seem not to have any good effect, and it is clear to me that I am going to need all the help I can get.

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

I shall think of you and hope to get an update from time to time.

John said...

I wish you well and I'll hope to hear things have smoothed out soon.

Natalia the Russian Spy said...

I'll miss your wit Mr S.

susananne said...

God bless you my friend. Dont be too long before you come back will you. You will be in my prayers.

justfly said...

Take care MrScribbs.

Anonymous said...

Darn it...i feel cheated. i don't know why but i do. I will miss reading your truthful words. Come back soon. Talking to St. Anthony right now...he got ya back. *winks* LL

maryjane said...

I offer up a prayer for both your safety and return.
Be well. I will miss you and your wit too.

lowandslow said...

I respect your decision, Scribbs. I hope you do come back and share your wonderful writings and insights with us. And I do pray, and I'll say a doozie for you, friend. Take care...

S

Anonymous said...

Gee....

really enjoy/ed reading your posts and you will be missed. i hope and pray that the absence will be short and that God will keep you safe and provide for all of your needs.

Bud

becomingkate said...

Offerings prayers and *hug*. Come back soon!

DAL said...

I'm always on call, Scribbs. Please be well.

Sally said...

Hurry back! Hope things get better for you very soon. Keep the faith. (((hugs)))

benb said...

Mr. Scribbler:
I have been reading you since you first came to JS. I didn't know who you were then, but I have - sorta figured it out now by some serious searching. You are much more in your professional life than probably many will know. My alignment with you has pretty much been that we are in the same boat in at least some respects, and certainly, the lack of having a significant other is one of them, pretty much high up on the priority list.
I have no idea what you are going through right now - with whoever and whatever is happening - but I do want you to know that my prayers are with and for you, since you have elicited them from everyone. That's not some mumbo-jumbo claim, that's a promise - when I'm praying, your life and all that it entails will be lifted up with everything else that I am praying about.
I wish you well.
bb

joan said...

I hope it won't be long. We need you here. All the best to you. We'll leave the light on for you.

Birdie said...

I come back from an internet-less trip only to find you going off for a while? Hopefully not long... I miss you already!!

You know how to reach me if you want to. {{{hugs}}}

emd said...

Good luck to you, Scribs. I hope you comeback soon. And, for what it's worth, I'm only about 3 minutes from you, and you know where to find me. Take care, buddy!