Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Irresolute...

...as in, forget all that New Year's Resolution jive. Not going that way, no sir.

I bring this up because of the mood I was in when I woke up today. Before my eyes were fully open, I started thinking about a lot of things I need to do, and a certain number of bad things I need to abandon/turn around. All of them things I've been neglecting or doing poorly.

Does that sound like a heap of resolutions waiting to be made? Yeah, it does, but I've decided on a different strategy: I'm just going to listen to the tiny voice of common sense in my head and deal with those things as and when they need to be dealt with. Without thinking of the cumulative improvements they might make.

And I'm sure as hell not going to write them down, here or anywhere else.

It often depresses me to read the writings of people who go heavy on the resolutions, proclaiming that 2008 will be the year and they are going to by God ditch all the bad and stride out into the world strong and powerful and make everything they want happen.

That's when the hand of reality often slaps you across the face with a wet fish.

Said hand of reality has delivered more than a few wet-fish whacks here. I do not propose to forget them, and I am aware that some may strike hard. Nothing I could resolve can affect all of them.

Is this year going to be better? I'd like to think so, but it's totally unpredictable. I'll try a little harder to get things moving my way, but acknowledge that my own missteps and other people's actions can fire a torpedo into my thin-skinned hull. All I can do is adjust the balance between thinking and doing.

The closest thing to a "resolution" came about early last night, when I decided I needed to open my mouth and express a few well-chosen personal feelings and needs. That's probably something I should resolve to do in all situations this year.

It's too early to tell, but it definitely seems to have been the right thing to do as of now.

But neither this nor anything else I'm thinking about seems to fit among "resolutions."

By my reckoning, it's simply a matter of paying more attention to whatever small amount of common-sense is wandering around within my noggin.

I gotta go do some stuff now....

5 comments:

DAL said...

I don't do resolutions, there are things I need to change without waiting for new years to act on them.

Right now I need to clear off the car and go get smokes, unless I want to walk a couple of miles in snow.

Justfly said...

I don't do resolutions either. That would just be setting myself up for failure!

Anonymous said...

...yeah, still dancing with old shadows here too. some dancing partners never want to let go...

Grumbleknutz

sugarcane said...

I don't do resolutions, either. It seems pointless to try to change things once a year, rather than throughout the year when things surface.

Anonymous said...

Screw resolutions. Just another day and another year. I can resolve to do or not do something any time.
Making resolutions is a good way to add to the depression and BS of the new year. It's just an arbitrary point in our travel around the sun.

John