Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Early to bed...

...to roll out at 0500 tomorrow to drive out into the middle of the damn desert for work. At the moment, any possible "fun" is obscured by a fear that I'll do something truly stupid and prove to the assembled multitude that I'm as big a horse's ass as I'm coming to feel I am.

The hits just keep on coming, Jim. I finally talked to one of the people I've been trying to reach for well over a week. He informed me that his company has cut its budgets, and won't be hiring any more freelance writers. This was bad enough, but I have spent a not inconsiderable amount of time doing prep work on some stories -- basic research, lining up contacts -- they said they wanted but now will not buy.

This is the same outfit that wanted the rush-rush story a couple of weeks ago, and hasn't gotten back to me with the information I need to bill them. So until I can reach that particular editor, I have to wonder if they'll pay for that story....

I did get one good call and was able to line up something that might make my friend lowandslow jealous as hell. Don't tell him I won't be making much money from it....

And I also got a call from a sweet friend. Her personal news was so good that it distracted me from my own miserable situation. I was, and am, delighted for her. And she soothed me with one of the best tonics of all, a bout of uncontrolled laughter. I love to listen to people laugh, even if, alas, it is over a 3000-mile-long wire.

I wish I could laugh.

Hell, I wish I could come up with some personal news that would delight people, me included.

But to do it now, I'd have to lie, and I don't lie very well. Apparently, I don't do anything any too damn well these days.

Be that as it may. O'-dark-thirty will come quickly enough, and I don't even do well with sleep. Better go see if I can get a head start on it.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

ooh hoo hoo!

-Lauren

likeisaid said...

Sleep well and good luck. :)

Sally said...

((((MrScribbler)))) I hope you can laugh one day real soon and that things look brighter for you as well! :)

HarpO'Fly said...

Sounds mysterious. Good luck.

Anonymous said...

Hi hope it gets better, hope you have a great thanksgiving. not posting just reading you, and my sisters.

benb said...

Oh, there is definitely at LEAST one thing you do well: WRITE!!!!
You are a natural born writer, I must assess that writing not only comes naturally to you, you also enjoy doing so?!!
bb