Thursday, February 22, 2007

Once again...

...I find myself unable to express my thoughts.

Once, I had grandiose dreams of success, of comfort, of love.

Now, I would settle for a secure roof over my head so I could ride out my remaining years in solitude and peace.

I'd like to be loved, but I don't know that I could again trust anyone who says she loves me.

I have some material desires, but most have lost their meaning.

Nothing remains, save a desire to be able to confront a new day without dread.

Even that is, apparently, too much to ask for.

Instead, perhaps I should simply ask for it all to be over.

4 comments:

likeisaid said...

Please don't talk like that. I'll say what you said to me. We're all blessed to know you! If either one of us wins the lottery we'll help each other. Now there's a nice thought. :))

KIT said...

I'm with LikeISaid. You are a blessing, and never fail to leave me wonderful, thoughtful and encouraging comments on my blog. I can't thank you enough for all your support over the last 2-years. I wish I could do the same for you.

Sally said...

(((((Scribbs))))) I hope you are feeling better today. I think we all have dreams that have gone to the wayside. I know DH and I certainly have. We also have pretty much given up on having those material things you are talking about. Just doesn't seem to be in the works for us. As for love, I don't think you should give up because of being hurt. I think we have all been hurt, probably lots of times. I am still hoping you will find that special someone to brighten your days. Please don't give up.

HarpO'Fly said...

That feeling sucks. I know how it feels. It seems a full time occupation running away from it.
Too painful to look at, really.