Saturday, October 13, 2007

The black fog.

It's called depression, and I sensed the first wispy tendrils on the horizon several days ago. Now it's here, wrapped around me.

Aside from the usual symptoms -- lethargy, unwillingness to think about things I need to think about -- work, for example -- and a simultaneous desire for solitude and for someone close enough to reach out to, the worst thing is that...

...I just deleted seven paragraphs, 'cause I don't want to say what I said.

Even though I meant every word, and each was, at least to me, true and accurate.

I've tried several proven methods to ward it off. All failed. So I guess I'll just sit here and wait for it to pass.

Feeling depressed is a real drag, Jim.

14 comments:

Kit said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling good. I hope it passes quickly.

emd said...

Yeah, Scrib. Hope you feel better soon.

joan said...

Sorry you are going through a bad time. Good thoughts are being sent your way. Take care. Go for a long walk.

lowandslow said...

You need to get one of those sponsors to buy you a ticket to somewhere my direction. Then you could give 'em half a day and a thousand words, and we could meet up for a multi-day road trip afterwards. You could regale me with car stories I could listen like an awe struck teenager in the presence of Carroll Shelby. OK, so maybe I exaggerate. Hope you get to feeling better, friend. :)

DAL said...

When I'm depressed, sitting still is the one thing I can't do. Let's hope this passes quickly.

John said...

Still don't know who is this "Jim", but I agree that depression is no picnic. I hope it fades. The black fog is no fun at all.

MrScribbler said...

John -- "Jim" isn't anyone. He/it is just a mythical person whose name occasionally appeared at the end of sentences spoken by 1930s jazz musicians, Lenny Bruce, and others.

Anonymous said...

sorry to hear this. hope it isn't because you've been reading "whatever"....

Bud

Justfly said...

I am sorry MrScrib. I hope you feel better soon.

John said...

The methods aren't proven if they don't work.

John said...

I was just messin with you on the Jim thing.

MrScribbler said...

John -- I figured you had the "Jim" bit...others don't, though.

Tough to be an aging hipster.

Anonymous said...

Yeah, sorry to hear you're down. Best wishes!
-Nullmuse

paulafrances said...

Depression comes and goes in my life. Now my doc thinks I need HGH! If he has a miracle cure, that would be great!