Monday, April 23, 2007

What we have here...

...is a failure of inspiration.

I don't really give a damn about the work I'm doing right now, and when I read what I've written the indifference seems to stand out in big day-glo letters.

I think the "delete" key got more use today than any other. Lots of dry, uninteresting paragraphs went down the ol' cyber-oubliette; at this rate, I'll end up erasing every article I've ever written.

The photographer I usually work with called this afternoon. He was full of "x wants us to do a story about y" babble. Do I care? No. X is one of the slimy bastards who can hold stories for months without paying. Besides, y is not a subject that interests me at all.

This only matters because I have no other life right now than my miserable work. If other things were at least on the horizon and not just in fading memories and futile wishes, I could deal with cranking out crap pieces for crap magazines, and do it well.

I'm afraid I may have conveyed my lack of enthusiasm in the phone call.

Ask me if I care.

Oh, well. Tomorrow is another day.

I might wake up full of enthusiasm, ready, willing able to pump out words by the hundreds. I may be able to forget the late checks and the pitifully small numbers written on them. I could even turn out something I'd be proud to use as a sample of my work for prospective clients.

And monkeys might fly out of my butt.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

I didn't have the greatest Monday either. Let's hope for a better Tuesday! You never know -- maybe monkeys WILL fly out of your butt...

Gill

Anonymous said...

Well honey I thought no one was more variable than I, however,Ii have never had monkeys fly out of my butt...so far!

MrScribbler said...

I'm not sure I can deal with both monkeys flying out of my butt and Sheryl Crow's insistence that we can all do with one square of toilet paper at a time....

KingOfPain said...

Have you ever had monkeys fly UP your butt? NOT a pleasant experience let me tell you. ;)
You were my 3000th hit. Thanks for stopping by, and may your tomorrow outshine your today.

betty said...

One square of tp, hahahaha..that's too funny. You just know she practices what she preaches. :)

Birdie said...

are you at all trying to find other means of employment? at the rate you're going, maybe even a job as greeter at Walmart would be an option! LOL (just kidding)
take care.... lots of people care about you!

Anonymous said...

I think if you keep being productive with your work, it will pay off. You're a pro. You can do it.

-Lauren

lowandslow said...

Haha...the ultimate 3rd world HMO colonoscopy. :)

joan said...

Aaaack. I was going to try to write something thoughtful but lowandslows comment scattered everything in my brain. Yikes.

Anonymous said...

Hello, where ARE you? It is Wednesday...it is not like you to be away! It is like me!
Hope you are ok!
lz