Thursday, March 06, 2008

The other side of a bad thing...

...that I have written about so many times. All y'all have read my whingeings about being lonely, about the misery I feel waking up alone every morning and missing out on intimate contact -- mental and physical -- which is as vital a part of life as breathing.

Okay. I still feel that way.

But damn, was it wonderful to wake up alone this morning!

Oh, I woke up at 1:15 am, 3:30, 4:00 and 5:30, just as I did the last few days. It's gotten to be routine.

The difference today was that no one jammed one of them fershlugginer electronic thermometer probes down my throat, jabbed me with various needles (for fluids going in and out), made me breathe vapors from a tube or wrapped a blood-pressure cuff around my arm.

PARENTHETICAL NOT-EVERY-NEEDLE-JAB-WAS-BAD NOTE: One or two of those injections were morphine. Kinda got me into a Marvin Gaye bag, you know..."Mmmmmm, let's get ree-laxed, bay-beh...."

And I was in my own bed, too, which knows the contours of my aging body much better than the Adjust-O-Matic hospital beds. When I got home yesterday I noticed said bed had new sheets -- far nicer-looking than any I've ever owned -- and a lovely warm blanket on it to welcome me home.

Yeah, you can probably guess who was responsible.

So the being-alone bit didn't seem so bad last night, even though I still want it to change.

I'm alive. And a lot of people love me.

I hope the Universe will forgive me for insisting that I still want it all....


sugarcane said...

My God, am I ever glad you're back amongst the living! We missed you babycakes. I also have to admit that I'm glad you're wit and sarcasm didn't leave you while you were almost dead.
Love ya pookie!!

Anonymous said...

It's good your back. It's also very good your still you! *squeezes ya tight* LL

Anonymous said...

"I'm alive. And a lot of people love me." Two out of three ain't bad Scribbs. Glad you're feeling at least a little better today. Take care, friend.


Anonymous said...

Thank goodness you are back home. I hate needles. Ouch! Keep getting better.

becomingkate said...

I'm so glad everything is better - I'll be back later cause I have to go to work now. *hugs*

Justfly said...

You deserve to have it all.
It is so good to see you back!
You really had us worried.

"fershlugginer"...I like that word =)

Anonymous said...

((MrS)), I'm so glad you're back home and on the mend. We were all so worried. Take it easy and don't do too much!

Yacky (JS) said...

I'm glad you're recovering well

Amanda said...

Scribbs!!! I'm so glad you're back among the living! You scared the daylights outta some of us.

Don't do that again, got it? Now hurry up and feel even better!