...as yet another day goes by in a kind of blur that has nothing to do with artificial mood-altering items.
It was a nothing day. It seems boring and repetitive to say no money came in and no responses were received regarding numerous inquiries about work, but that's how it was.
What bothers me more than a little is that I felt nothing when I thought about my rapidly deteriorating situation today. No anger, no resolve to do something -- as if, at this point, there is anything I can do -- or anything of the sort. All I feel is a kind of resignation (mixed with a little curiosity) about what happens next.
One way or another, this miserable situation must come to an end, and soon. Right now the chances of a positive outcome aren't looking good.
17 hours ago